Emir, annesi \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra boynundaki eski madalyonu hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131karmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On bir ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131 ve madalyonun nereden geldi\u011fini tam olarak bilmiyordu. Annesi Zeynep, hastanede ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi son g\u00fcnlerde onu avucunun i\u00e7ine b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f, zinciri o\u011flunun boynuna kendi elleriyle takm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBir g\u00fcn eski u\u00e7aklar\u0131n oldu\u011fu yere gidersen,\u201d demi\u015fti g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle nefes alarak, \u201cbunu saklama.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Emir o zaman bu s\u00f6zlerin anlam\u0131n\u0131 sormu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zeynep yaln\u0131zca g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cDo\u011fru ki\u015fi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce anlayacak.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Emir\u2019in babas\u0131 hakk\u0131nda bildikleri ise bundan da azd\u0131. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fundan beri ona, babas\u0131n\u0131n kendisi do\u011fmadan \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc s\u00f6ylenmi\u015fti. Evde tek bir foto\u011fraf\u0131 bile yoktu. Annesi ne zaman ge\u00e7mi\u015ften s\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131lsa konuyu de\u011fi\u015ftirirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu y\u00fczden Emir y\u0131llarca iki ki\u015filik k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ba\u015fka bir ailesi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zeynep\u2019in \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra onu teyzesi yan\u0131na ald\u0131. Kad\u0131n iyi kalpliydi ama Emir\u2019in i\u00e7ine kapanmas\u0131n\u0131 engelleyemiyordu. \u00c7ocuk okuldan geliyor, odas\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kapat\u0131yor ve annesinin b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 birka\u00e7 e\u015fyay\u0131 tekrar tekrar inceliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Madalyon bunlar\u0131n en gizemlisiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00dczerinde kanatlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kartal vard\u0131. Arka taraf\u0131na ise iki harf kaz\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M.K.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Aylar sonra okul, \u0130stanbul d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6zel bir havac\u0131l\u0131k koleksiyonuna gezi d\u00fczenledi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir gitmek istemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sonra annesinin son s\u00f6zlerini hat\u0131rlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eski u\u00e7aklar\u0131n oldu\u011fu yer…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Gezi g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ocuklar hangar\u0131n i\u00e7ine ko\u015farak girdiler. Tavandan g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc \u0131\u015f\u0131klar iniyor, cilalanm\u0131\u015f metal g\u00f6vdeler parl\u0131yordu. Bir zamanlar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde u\u00e7mu\u015f u\u00e7aklar \u015fimdi sessizce ziyaret\u00e7ileri bekliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir di\u011ferlerinden ayr\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Hangar\u0131n en arkas\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, pervaneli bir u\u00e7ak vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6n\u00fcndeki tabelada tek bir isim yaz\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Murat Karaca.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir\u2019in eli fark\u0131nda olmadan boynuna gitti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M.K.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tam o anda arkas\u0131ndan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam\u0131n sesi duyuldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cEvlat… o kolyeyi nereden buldun?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda seksenlerine yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, d\u00fczg\u00fcn tak\u0131m elbiseli, bastonuna hafif\u00e7e yaslanan bir adam duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade meraktan \u00e7ok korkuya benziyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir madalyonu avucunun i\u00e7ine ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAnnem verdi.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Adam bir ad\u0131m yakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAnnenin ad\u0131 neydi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cZeynep.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n g\u00f6zleri bir anda doldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cZeynep Ayd\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir\u2019in kalbi h\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cEvet. Siz annemi tan\u0131yor muydunuz?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Adam cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Madalyonu i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cOnu a\u00e7abilir miyim?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir teredd\u00fct etti, sonra zinciri \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u011fmeye bast\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir, madalyonun a\u00e7\u0131labildi\u011fini bile bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130\u00e7inden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir elektronik par\u00e7a \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Adam onu elindeki eski bir okuyucuya yakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131nca, titre\u015fen soluk bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc belirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Gen\u00e7 bir adam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pilot \u00fcniformas\u0131 giymi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir nefesini tuttu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ekrandaki adam\u0131n g\u00f6zleri kendisininkilere inan\u0131lmaz derecede benziyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kay\u0131t ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBaba, bunu izliyorsan muhtemelen yine birbirimize s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fimiz \u015feyler y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7ok zaman kaybettik.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n bastonu titredi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir ona bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Adam a\u011fl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Videodaki gen\u00e7 adam devam etti:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cZeynep\u2019le evlendim. Bunu senden saklamak istemezdim ama onu kabul etmeyece\u011fini biliyordum. Bir de o\u011flumuz olacak. E\u011fer bana bir \u015fey olursa, senden tek iste\u011fim onlar\u0131 su\u00e7lama. Benim se\u00e7imlerimin bedelini onlar \u00f6demesin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc sona erdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Hangardaki sesler Emir\u2019e \u00e7ok uzaklardan geliyormu\u015f gibi oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam bir sandalyeye oturdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBenim ad\u0131m Cemal Karaca,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal g\u00f6zlerini kar\u015f\u0131daki u\u00e7a\u011fa \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cMurat benim o\u011flumdu.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir\u2019in dudaklar\u0131 araland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cYani…\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBen senin dedenim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir geri \u00e7ekildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun on bir y\u0131lda kurdu\u011fu b\u00fct\u00fcn ge\u00e7mi\u015f birka\u00e7 saniyede de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal yava\u015f\u00e7a anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Murat gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta pilot olmu\u015ftu. Zeynep\u2019le tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ailesi bu ili\u015fkiye kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Cemal, o\u011flunun varl\u0131kl\u0131 ve tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bir aileden gelen biriyle evlenmesini istiyordu. Zeynep\u2019i ise o\u011flunun gelece\u011fini mahvedecek biri olarak g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Murat babas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f ve evi terk etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Aylar sonra meydana gelen bir u\u00e7ak kazas\u0131nda hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal, o\u011flunun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden Zeynep\u2019i sorumlu tuttu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Telefonlar\u0131na cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6nderdi\u011fi mektuplar\u0131 a\u00e7madan geri yollad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Zeynep hamile oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal bunu hi\u00e7 \u00f6\u011frenmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ya da \u00f6\u011frenmek istemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Y\u0131llar sonra \u00f6fkesi ge\u00e7ti\u011finde Zeynep\u2019i aram\u0131\u015f, fakat izini bulamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBen o\u011flumu kaybettim,\u201d dedi Cemal. \u201cSonra gururum y\u00fcz\u00fcnden onun geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 aileyi de kaybettim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir\u2019in g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAnnem sizi neden hi\u00e7 anlatmad\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal uzun s\u00fcre sustu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cMuhtemelen seni benim \u00f6fkemden korumak istedi.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir, madalyonu tekrar eline ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cSonra neden beni size g\u00f6nderdi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal cevap vermeden \u00f6nce ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc annen benden daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc biriymi\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n O g\u00fcn Emir hemen dedesine sar\u0131lmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Onu affetmedi de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n bile baz\u0131 yaralar\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7in zamana ihtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fakat gitmeden \u00f6nce bir soru sordu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBabam nas\u0131l biriydi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fcnde y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme belirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201c\u00c7ok inat\u00e7\u0131yd\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir istemeden g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAnnem de \u00f6yle derdi.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n O g\u00fcn ba\u015flayan konu\u015fma y\u0131llarca s\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal, Emir\u2019e babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu anlatt\u0131. \u0130lk bisiklet kazas\u0131n\u0131, u\u00e7aklara olan tutkusunu, gizlice yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 maketleri, pilot okuluna kabul edildi\u011fi g\u00fcn nas\u0131l sevin\u00e7ten a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir de ona Zeynep\u2019i anlatt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Annesinin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 mercimek \u00e7orbas\u0131n\u0131, ya\u011fmurlu g\u00fcnlerde s\u00f6yledikleri \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131, hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belli etmemek i\u00e7in nas\u0131l s\u00fcrekli \u015faka yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130ki insan, kaybettikleri iki ki\u015fiyi birbirlerine anlatarak ilk kez ger\u00e7ek anlamda tan\u0131d\u0131lar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal k\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra Emir\u2019in yasal vasili\u011fini istemedi. \u00c7ocu\u011fu y\u0131llard\u0131r b\u00fcy\u00fcten teyzesinin yerini almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sadece hayat\u0131nda bulunmak istedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir buna izin verdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Her pazar birlikte kahvalt\u0131 yapt\u0131lar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sonra u\u00e7ak m\u00fczesine gittiler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal, Murat\u2019\u0131n kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 restore ettirdi ama asla u\u00e7urmad\u0131. U\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na yeni bir tabela koydurdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cPilot Murat Karaca\u2019n\u0131n ve onu seven Zeynep\u2019in an\u0131s\u0131na.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir m\u00fchendislik okudu ve havac\u0131l\u0131k sistemleri \u00fczerine \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Pilot olmad\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 tekrar etmek istemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kendi yolunu se\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal doksan ya\u015f\u0131nda, evinde huzur i\u00e7inde \u00f6ld\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Son gece Emir yan\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam, torununun boynundaki madalyona bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBaban\u0131 sana geri veremedim,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir elini tuttu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal\u2019in g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cKe\u015fke verebilseydim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAma onu tan\u0131mam\u0131 sa\u011flad\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cemal o gece g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek g\u00f6zlerini kapad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir y\u0131llar sonra evlendi ve bir k\u0131z\u0131 oldu. Ona annesinin ad\u0131n\u0131 verdi: Zeynep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Madalyonu ise k\u0131z\u0131na vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Onu m\u00fczedeki eski u\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na, cam bir kutunun i\u00e7ine yerle\u015ftirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Alt\u0131na tek bir c\u00fcmle yazd\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cBaz\u0131 miraslar para de\u011fil, yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f bir sevginin tamamlanmas\u0131d\u0131r.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Emir art\u0131k ge\u00e7mi\u015fi hakk\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir soru i\u015fareti ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Babas\u0131n\u0131n kim oldu\u011funu biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Annesinin neden sustu\u011funu biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dedesinin neden y\u0131llarca yaln\u0131z ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n En \u00f6nemlisi, onlar\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hatalar\u0131n kendi gelece\u011fini belirlemesine izin vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir zamanlar boynunda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck madalyon, \u00fc\u00e7 ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki y\u0131llarca kapal\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015f kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ve Emir o kap\u0131y\u0131 bir daha hi\u00e7 kapatmad\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Emir, annesi \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra boynundaki eski madalyonu hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131karmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. On bir ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131 ve madalyonun nereden geldi\u011fini tam olarak bilmiyordu. Annesi Zeynep, hastanede ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi son g\u00fcnlerde onu avucunun i\u00e7ine b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f, zinciri o\u011flunun boynuna kendi elleriyle takm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cBir g\u00fcn eski u\u00e7aklar\u0131n oldu\u011fu yere gidersen,\u201d demi\u015fti g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle nefes alarak, \u201cbunu saklama.\u201d Emir o zaman bu s\u00f6zlerin anlam\u0131n\u0131 sormu\u015ftu. … \u0427\u0438\u0442\u0430\u0442\u044c \u0434\u0430\u043b\u0435\u0435<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":685,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-684","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/684","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=684"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/684\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":686,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/684\/revisions\/686"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/685"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=684"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=684"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/warmtales.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=684"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}